polyrythm is a pattern

pol·y·rhythm /ˈpɒliˌrɪðəm/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[pol-ee-rith-uhm] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun Music.
-the simultaneous occurrence of sharply contrasting rhythms within a composition.

something new for me to learn. opportunity has struck again and its awesome to learn something new to improve. i look forward to the challenge! there are many bands and ideas to research. new drummers. new sound. its very exciting!

what else? yes, i am what else"ing" you. i am tired, but i will do it. no rest for the wicked.. another cliche. i have one minute and i am staring at this screen. drawing a blank.

time is up.....BLANK!

not easy to see

not easy to see this morning. short on sleep. meeting extended my day and got home after 10pm. eating is another issue with these late nights. i assumed dinner would be provided. no dice. hungry when i arrive home & i gotta eat. its becoming a problem. yes i am involving you in my eating habits.... my best bet is to eat fruit and maybe some cheese. i could eat all day. maybe its my tapeworm? i figured my appetite would subside when i moved to the bay area, but for some reason it has increased...

what do i have this week? coffee just kicked in.... i am just staring off in to space. i have issues pending that are really bothering me. will not mention it here.

oh yeah this week. its the usual. i have a few more night shifts to work this week. jam session on wed night. hope to play with another new person this week.

as i sit here, i believe i have nothing to offer. no words of wisdom. well.... just don't let the man break you down. run over you. stand up for what you want. unless you say/do something about a situation, its your own damn fault for letting it happen... no excuses. something bothering you, face the problem, rather than ignore and resent.

i have a red couch. its a pull out futon. i sit on it every morning starting at 5:15am and write. usually get off at 5:45am. this is where my mind and body catch up.

its sunday

its sunday. up early to get after it.. need to write. its is raining so hard right now that you can hear it on the roof. the wind. the rain. its extremely soothing. its foggy. green. i just dig it!

the last 2 days off were awesome. you already know about my day on friday. yesterday was household day. cleaning. grocery store. laundry. the ladies went to a birthday party sleep over. little d's friend. babers is a chaperon. 8 hormonal girls. i am glad to be at home safe with the door locked. that's to much emotion for me. got enough with one for now.... its a hand full!

after 3 the girls were gone and it was time to get on my kit. i love my kit. gretsch new classic in vintage glass nitron. removed the bass drum pad and let it rip. damn it thumps. every drum hits the mark. must get a 16x16 floor tom and a maple snare. in time. looking at pictures gives me ideas about how to configure my cymbals when i get more. still trying to find my sound. so. on the kit for about 3 hrs. rudiments. accent practice. practice 32nd notes. played with a few songs. after sitting at the kit for 3 hours i decided it was a good idea to get outside. took the "tongue" for a walk on the path. its was foggy and rainy. excellent way to decompress. came back. started a pizza. fed the "tongue". made a salad. sat back and ate. watching the matrix and practicing rudiments for another 30-40 minutes on the practice pad. used the metronome. i love to practice, b/c i know in the end all the rudiments i practice will be ingrained in my brain and without thinking, my playing will go to an amazing level. can already feel it happening!

its time to go.

an inspiring feeling

an inspiring feeling occurred and i will explain. i put a post on craigslist wanting to play drums with anyone who is interested last week and i got many responses. one response led to a 2 hour session today. what an experience! we played songs they wrote. no jams. just song after song! for the first time tonight i was playing and i actually heard and understood a transition. while playing i had to count, remember what measure and think about how to fill. the second time it was played, i nailed it. amazing to hear the language for the first time. realize it. know it! KICK ITS ASS!

for the last 4 months i have been playing with a few people and it has been great. something i realized i am lacking is structure. the musicians i played with today are structured, experienced and want to work hard to play. that is what i want! if i played with a tight crew for 6 months, i would be shredding! that day will come very soon.

i know what i have to do......

speak. speak in to the microphone. where is it. there it is. the is a slight fuzz to my temple. thank goodness my hand feels better. yelp. to help. is there a state in which i am in or is this a phase. this is a ay to get the words out. stream of consciousness. is there such a thing? stream. i have felt one of those before. who thinks this is an attempt to get motivated? motivation is needed in the world. its nothing like that you are use to. why is that i cannot go to the gas station with out being bombarded by advertising. who's idea was it put a tv at a gas pump. "they" think i cannot go 15 seconds without watch the boob tube?? same thing at "take over the world with cheap prices" wal mart. ahhh. i will just sit in line watch stupid ass ads and read even more pathetic magazine covers to make sure i am keeping up with which celebrity is beating there child or attempting to be a humanitarian. it got it...who the fuck cares! i got better things to do than care about celebrities in a bubble with there ego..

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state of mind

where is my state of mind?? its all over the map. i feel that its has a been a year since i last wrote. the weekend was unbelievable. went to tahoe. i am having some sort of problem explaining this part of the trip. malfunction. up early on friday in hopes of skiing a half day. did not happen. took the afternoon off and relaxed. saturday skied squaw for the first time. the weather was warm and beautiful. one run in particular got me back in the zone. directly under the gold coast express lift was an excellent line that me and the wife tore up. there is only one word to describe the conditions. "creamy!" it was so sweet! had a casual evening and was up at 6am to get back to SF for work.

this is where my state of mind comes in to play.... to be as dialed in as we are in five months is amazing, but i want more. with everything that has happened, there have been many sacrifices. my largest sacrifice is time. my time has become the machines time. i spend more time thinking about work than anything else. i am extremely conscious of this and anytime i have for myself, i meditate on what i want. on the bart i find myself cleansing my mind of the any happenings and making room for all that makes my world complete. what it comes down to. music. listening to the red hot chili peppers and i am mezmerized. kiedis with his voice and lyrics. frusciante melodically creating time. flea riping the bass & his back up vocals(rhcp would be nothing with out the back ups of flea). chad smith. chad killing the drums with his heavy beats of intention.. its all wrapped up to create the funk! these guys are having so much fun and i want a piece of the action. yes, i am sure its work at time. that all falls away when magic is created. i want to make music and make an incredible living at it!

my time is slowly becoming someone elses. i am remembering it is the year of the rat. i am rat. watch out, b/c i will be leading the way this year. it will all be mine in 08!

to mind

there are many things that come to mind. the main theme. percussion. my drums are my passion. got a small jam in yesterday. so it goes....."you think, you stink" is very true. on the kit for about 10-15 min and i stopped thinking and let it go. it went. i will have to record my next you think you stink session.

the art of percussion is infinite. i like that!

definition

con·se·quence (kŏn'sĭ-kwěns', -kwəns)
-noun

1. Something that logically or naturally follows from an action or condition. See Synonyms at effect.
2. The relation of a result to its cause.
3. A logical conclusion or inference.

e·mo·tion /ɪˈmoʊʃən/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[i-moh-shuhn]
–noun

1.	an affective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like, is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness.

these are 2 words people of this planet need to understand. for the most part, a consequence is something many people do not understand. if someone does something, positive or negative, there is always a consequence or effect. action/reaction. many people believe that they can walk around this planet and do as they please with no consequences. that is where emotion comes to play. if the person is confronted about there actions, then there is always a emotional response. its not logical. its emotional. better yet, EXCUSES! explaining a consequence is not
a personal attack. it is a explanation of action and its immediate reaction. its not easy to hear. i get my feathers flustered when this occurs. be present. deal with the situation at hand. look at the situation and flip it. its knowing that it is going to improve your life. this in turn will make interacting with people more reasonable.

i could go on and on about this, but i believe you get the point!

snooze at 5am

i hit snooze for the first time at 5am and i rose from the bed at 5:04am. for some reason i am better fot it. very alert and feeling good. normally if i hit snooze, its harder to get out of bed. the out/in of sleep scenario makes it hard, but not today.

short day today. that is why i love mondays! more time with little d! handball will be played this afternoon. will be nice to be in the sun again. 60 in february. use to 20 degree days and negative nights. not the case. i am sure more weather will hit us, but it feels good that the trend is on the sunny and warm side.

had a 2 hr break yesterday and enjoyed a walk around the city. still trying to get a feel for SF. need to find some spots to hang out during breaks. cafe of some sort. some where to people watch. went to an awesome music store called rasputin music. 4 floors of bliss.

time to go. trying to be cynical, but no need. state of mind is calm.

where have you been?

where have i been? well. i took a few days off from writing. my days were entirely full and awesome! lets start with friday. up early and got little d prepared for school. off to another great yoga class. back home and discussing work with the wife. breakfast and dashed off to redwood city for a drum lesson. an hour later i am wailing on the drums learning more about 32nd notes and how to make it work on the kit. 2 o'clock and i am outta there and back to the east bay to pick up little d from school. come home, fix a snack and prepare to play handball. a few small disputes leaves little d and i perplexed and quiet.... the best part about the afternoon were rays off the sun. completely rejuvinating. babers finds us walking back from handball and entices us to continue the handball battle. another hour and we are back home relaxing. listening to "the dan". dinner. watch the tv and off to bed.

casual saturday morning. fresh cup o coffee. help little d make pancakes. watch spongebob. go for a walk. little d decided to roller blade, which was a nice change. the weather was so damn nice! i believe thats why the red hot chili peppers sing about california in every song. california kicks ass! anyway.... came home after the walk and finished up on laundry. played the drums for a long while and made progress. ate lunch. played more drums. little d wanted to try tennis. borrowed some rackets and played on the courts up the street. little d took to the game naturally. will get her some lessons. its was nice being outside! came home and little d was invited for a sleepover. i continued to play drums and do the laundry. babers drove little d to her friends and came back home for a late dinner. watched true lies and off to bed.

now. waking up to another beautiful day and preparing myself for the inevitable. work. first i will take a walk.

no issues at hand

no issues at hand. sit on the couch this morning wondering. wondering nothing. just letting my thoughts flow. its something that comes just once in a while. take advantage and enjoy.

initiative . take the initiative and make something happen. i am formulating an email to do it! here i come.....

mantra

there are times in which i sit and ponder about my state of mind. its overwhelming. frightening at times. in a matter of seconds i can remember something i want to mention and then.... then.... its gone. at 50 i will probably need a name badge and directions to my house. lost. this is me. show me the way home?

so in this time, i have a mantra. i want it to be one word, but it clearly needs to be two.

quiet & patience.

quiet:quiet my mind and think about what you wan to say or do.
patience:think before you speak. let things happen the way they will. you can not control.

le i don't know

inside of my head i am reminded of one of my all time favorite cartoon characters. pepe le pew. some of the best one liners were created from this god among skunks. "i am still looking for you...." "hello baby." "Quelle est - Le belle femme skunk fatale." why does this make any sense at all? started with the expression le and this is where i have ended up. le. its an abbreviation. really. now i am just talking to myself. don't you get it yet?

i will get after it today! what else do i have today. hopefully i will be stress free today. i have a feeling i will be able to coax my way through today. in the middle of all of this, i have come to the conclusion i am unable to box my stress. in this case i will be aware of its presence. look at. crush it! move forward...thats the plan.

take a visit

its safe now. you can take a visit. in the original movie, willy wonka and the chocolate factory there is a moment that reminds me of my brain. the entire cast walks down a hall that keeps getting smaller. "my realities become dreams & all my dreams become realities." willy opens the door and there is his dreamland of chocolate. that scene reminds me of my brain. i am the gatekeeper to all the secrets. the mystery. to enter you must know the secret password played with your finger tips. all is calm now, but there is chaotic potential.

yesterday was a good day. housework. drums. paid my bills.

today is my monday. i have plenty to do. lets kick some ass!

the calm

took care of myself last night. practiced rudiments for 2 hrs last night. ate dinner. lost my brain last night watching tv. needed the rest. i have woken up with a new ounce of vigor. house work today. cleaning. laundry. drums!

in my intense brain moments, i will breathe. i have a sense of calm. i feel much safer.

system overload

this morning i woke up fresh and then schizophrenic. there are days when i cannot control my own being. there is untapped potential. ideas to harness. it gets to loud at times and i am unable to do anything except be. it is extremely exciting and scary at the same time. i have to slow down and be conscious of every decision, especially when i am speaking. its sort of a porky pig "ism".

some how i have made it this far today. meditated for 15-20 minutes today and that really helped! got after it ever since. writing ideas. helping the wife move into her new studio. thats the picture inside the studio. fresh coat of paint. what a smell.... her new platform to kick some ass! i am extremely excited for her. its starting for her and there are only greater things to come!

tonight is my night. drums. dinner. drums. tv. it will be a good night!