there is daylight

i am use to writing this when it is dark outside. interesting to have daylight gleaming in the windows while on the couch. i prefer the darkness. black. no today show. no noise. black & peace. to much chatter.

watched the pirates of the jellybean last night. little d was awesome! brought tears to my eyes. she was so good! am i missing it? no. just kicking ass to make it happen.

there are times when i question the state of america. the television. the magazines. the machine. when you sit and watch, there is so much crap on the tube. why is it interesting to watch over weight americans flounder to lose weight on a so called reality show? how about my sweet sixteen birthday bash party. watched a sixteen year old have a huge birthday bash and then get a 65k range rover. raise your middle finger! it makes me sick. people somehow believe they deserve such gifts for turning 16. what is the message? a child that age will grow up with no concept of money. in some ways, i was brought up this way. spend, spend, spend. it took me years to figure out what i wanted. now i know. i realize instant gratification brings nothing. nothing for the soul. no passion! join the machine or not. i choose not to. there is more. if you want reality, stop and look around. reality is a street person asking you for money. reality is a guy hustling to get to work on time. a woman sprinting to catch the muni. so many people miss it. though peoples perception is there reality. most peoples reality is pathetic. self absorbed and narrow minded. want reality....join me for a ride! i am out there everyday kicking ass! what are you doing? don't worry, i know and it makes me laugh!