last day of 07

it comes once a year. the new year begins tomorrow and everything will be great. time to create a new dream board to set myself up for success!

yesterday was a stressful day. people. people shock me with there needs. its amazing how people act and treat others this time of the year.

watching tv in the morning or anytime, this time of the year is hilarious. quit smoking. lose weight... its all at your finger tips with a magic pill. do it yourself. get in and do the work. its a life style change, not a "take a pill and be cured" change.

busy morning and then work. gotta get after it. what are you doing?

just another day

have not been in the writing mood the last few days. burnt from the retail onslaught. my brain is flat. its shows in many areas but i am still driving the mother ship. things will be easier. as i said, come january, things will change.

saturday was the best day out of the 2 days off. played the skins for hours. need more. for the first time in a while, my wrist started to hurt. i will be putting more time in on the drums now that things have cooled down. that excites me. music is where its at for me!

for 08. family, more drums, less work, yoga, tattoos and ass kicking!

return

nothing but returns today. should be interesting. yesterday was a good day. no way no how did it feel like christmas. use to being surrounded by snow. strange it is.

today is a day i must breathe. need to be calm and collected for 2 more days. then i can relax.. i think. as i stare off in to nothing i have no answer.

do the job. do it well. leave. i am on the path. the war is here. i can fight or quit. fight. the words of a so called samurai warrior.

CH'I

for the last few days my energy has been wild. i believe it has been enough to throw my watch off. my watch has been jumping anywhere from 10 minutes to 2 hours fast. had the thought last night. while at work i had a massive dizzy spell. then nausea. then my body became increasingly fuzzy with energy. mostly my head. is it the winter solstice? is it the full moon? all i know is that i am on fire! it feels right.

so i have been thinking about death since it has touched my family again. death is so taboo. mostly because we all fear it to some extent. what to say to someone when a loved one dies. can you be more creative than "he/she is in a better place?" excuse me, but how the fuck do you know? so why is it taboo in a society dripping with openness. you will bring your conversations to everyones attention on your cell phone while on the street, in a cab or on public transit. dehumanize someone while everyone listens. everyone can hear. so tell me....what will you say?

48 degrees

its 48 degrees in my house. its 6:25 am. 5 hrs of sleep and i am ready to go. sort of. tired. yesterday was a hell of a busy day. glad i took the extra hour of sleep. will need everything i got today. i can see my breath. my brain is flat right now. maybe the world is flat too? the way people act sometimes makes me believe that may be true. what is the point telling all of you(1 or 2 people) what people are capable of saying. you know....

2 new words in my vocabulary i love to use. disdain & conundrum. try them some time.

dis·dain : /dɪsˈdeɪn, dɪˈsteɪn/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[dis-deyn, di-steyn]Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –verb (used with object)

1.	to look upon or treat with contempt; despise; scorn.

2.	to think unworthy of notice, response, etc.; consider beneath oneself: to disdain replying to an insult.

co·nun·drum : /kəˈnʌndrəm/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[kuh-nuhn-druhm] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun

1.	a riddle, the answer to which involves a pun or play on words, as What is black and white and read all over? A newspaper.

2.	anything that puzzles.

have the best day you can and kick some ass!

CHILDRENS CORNER WITH HR & more

JUST WHAT EVERYONE NEEDS DURING THIS SO CALLED "CHEERY" SEASON... MAKES ME FEEL ALL WARM AND FUZZY INSIDE.

yesterday was a good day. early to rise again. coffee. walk the dog. amazing yoga class. amazing i tell you! set my intention to send every ounce of love to my wife and her family. i must say i felt extremely powerful yesterday. no doubt, just ass kicking!

today will be full of work. chaos with added chaos. damn last minute shoppers....

welcome 6 panels

welcome 6 panels. new addition to no name. i look forward to reading his intriguing words.

yesterday was a good day. up early. walked "the tongue". swept the house. went to the post office. haircut. yoga. lunch. hit the skins(woke up a baby)... more work and went for a jam last night. home at 11:30. fell asleep on the couch.

now i am up. coffee in hand. called the wife. she and d are away at a funeral. things have changed and family members are getting under my skin. death creates animosity. blood in the water. that blood is money. money and ego. everyone suffers. let the thought of money and ego go. a loved one has fallen..

its easy for me to be angry. easy for me to understand the suffering. been right there in the mix. from the outside it easy to plot a solution. what to do. people are going to say what they are going to say. do what they are going to do. let it go. let the dust settle. then ask the tough questions. ask for what you need. physical memories.it will pull you through, but there will be work ahead. the work is time. its all you have.

enter.

that's right, it's me.  it's late, i'm caffeinated, i sat still for too long and the wagon wheel ain't turned in a while, if you know what i'm saying. dropping the reins is really ill-advised, but we all live and learn -- monuments unto ourselves, really.  more to follow....

STAR & RATS

more beats from me. check it...

sorry

sorry is a word that should eliminated from everyone's vocabulary. moving through a crowd you bump in to someone. "sorry". ask for id at the register. "oh, i'm sorry". i hear the word sorry more than i care to. pick another word. why are you sorry if you bump in to someone. people are sorry for everything.

definition: sorry: /ˈsɒri, ˈsɔri/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[sor-ee, sawr-ee]
–adjective, -ri·er, -ri·est.

1.

feeling regret, compunction, sympathy, pity, etc.: to be sorry to leave one's friends; to be sorry for a remark; to be sorry for someone in trouble. the sooner you rid this word from you vocabulary, the better. i cannot say it anymore. even when some dies. "sorry for your loss".... its empty. void of feeling. be creative. use another word. don't be sorry.

4 hours ago

i went to bed 4 hours ago. now i am clean and ready for another day at work. not going to be an easy one. i am a watch killer this week. alarm went off and got up. 5am. watch read 6:30. reset. running 10 minutes fast again. not a clue?? looking forward to walking in the rain. feels good. got a few days flying solo at the end of the week. will take advantage. drawing a blank. will dig deep to get through today. i feel the fuzz.

death is stupid(click here)

death is stupid. well, its what happens to all of us. its the drama created that is stupid. picking sides. anger. its a time bomb. except it for what it is and move forward. its the best you can do. one song that has gotten me through is from the 1969 miles davis album bitches brew. its sanctuary. maybe it will help you see through.....

GIVE ME ANIMAL

this morning i had a moment. thinking of my playing. though of this video and all of its "out of control glory!" will record a animal moment this week.....

the last 2 days

i hope everyone enjoyed my latest video. something different. more to come. may cut a few more drum licks before the year is over and then i will get really creative. watch for it! the last few days have been really good. wednesday night we went and picked out a pagan tree. right off the lot 4.5 footer. lights and decorated in a few hours. its a great tree. interesting picking it out at a lot. use to get a permit and cut our own tree down. now we just point and pay. did i mention it cost 50 bucks...rip off! thursday played the drums for a while and made the recording. laundry, clean up and etc.... jammed thursday night and we seem to really be growing together. songs are coming together. friday. friday was another excellent day. yoga. breakfast. the only exception to this great day was going to target twice. walking around aimlessly bothers me. we were there for particular things, but you get caught in the drama. should i get this...should we get that....meanwhile you are over hearing people bitch and complain about there lives and "oh... how is your dog...?" BLAH BLAH BLAH! this is why i am really down on the "C" season. it is a conundrum created by our society to get more, buy more, have more than the next guy. to feel better. to feel better? oh and by the way our economy is in the balance of it all so get out there and spend your dollars for the betterment of out economy. get something that will change your life. i get the kid thing. kids dig it. as a kid i would freak. make it about quality not quantity. or just don't play at all. now i get to be the guy who answers all the questions. gotta go eat, drink more caffeine and get moving. that's the funny things about all of this... i am a salesman. did i sell you?

i can sell you some KICK SOME ASS!

Jam #1

i have found another way to put myself out there..... not just words. sound. my sound. thanks to my teachers. thanks to everyone and there support. i must play. music has changed my life. its what i want all the time. to make my sound. to play. what is your passion?

silence & coffee

tues at 5:25am

the chimes outside are going. must be a chilly one out there. did not write yesterday. did not feel the need. my answer to most questions yesterday was " i have my own war!" that's what is happening. we are all in it. we can choose how to approach it. yesterday i went inward for a while and turned it around. handles myself pretty well. today will be another hectic but fulfilling day. made the call to my neighbor yesterday. all is good with the drum playing. play till there is a problem. you will see me live on this site soon. gotta use this avenue more to my advantage. does not feel like the holidays to me at all. i want it to be over so things will stabilize. holiday bothers me. i think its what people become. bags of merchandise. gotta have gotta have, GOTTA HAVE.... i get it b/c i am pretty selfish. its that it is so perpetuated. hello people, there is more out there. try learning something new rather than perpetuating the old habits that have become our society.....(step off the soap box)....kick some ass!

warm sweat

james brown had a cold sweat. last night i had a sweat going on. not sure what that was all about. woke up and my shirt was damp from sweat. under the down blanket. ??? fighting something? stress? both? freaky. maybe i was having a dream and thats how my body reacted. i know i have had many dreams, but i cannot remember the details. driving in to work for the first time today. trying to figure out the parking scenario. free parking on sundays apparently. gotta go. time for my war!

this morning

coffee. jog. tv. getting ready for work shortly. the onslaught will be in full force today. its saturday and those credit cards will be ready to be fired up. not much else. need more music. need to play more. feel like i have slipped in my playing a bit. do the work and kick some ass!

it was a day

took the day off from writing yesterday. had one of my best friends in town. we discussed how to save the world. our worlds. nice to have someone in town who gets you. don't have to tell them your story. friends just get it. he picked me up at the store wed after work and we drove home with the top down(convertible bug). unfortunately on the bay bridge i got a mouth full of something. we will call it water. "keep your mouth shut." or the top up when on the bay bridge. hope he moves to cali. its always a possibility.

amazing yoga class today. drinking coffee. gotta get a pagan tree today. its tradition, but i am a bit over it. so market driven. the world could be changed in an instant if everyone decided to ease up off christmas a bit. think about the wastefulness. no more boxes and wrapping paper. that is a start!

my shell needs more tattoos.

no more idle by

usually i begin with the title, but this morning i am idle. planning on whooping some ass on some online scrabble. getting my head around todays agenda. would rather think about other things than work. pretty consumed. its what i signed up for. after the holiday, things will lighten up. looking forward to having a good friend in town. being picked up from work and back home. as i took a sip of coffee, i had a flash back of my fathers office. the smell of coffee. he took it black. me. espresso with h & h. back to my friend. wish we had more time in the city. wharf. trolley. union square. he is driving from san jose. he is going to half moon bay. heard 45ft waves were breaking there yesterday. body surf anyone? there is plenty i need to do and want to do. want to make changes to this sight. in due time. its gonna have to be 08. after i get home from work, i am pretty cooked. try and pump myself up on the ride home. i did get some playing done last night. i did get creamed in monopoly last night. little d was on the rampage. its little d's b day today. 11. WTF! she is so cool! will hopefully remember to call this morning. its time to split. kick some ass!

forcast for

there is always something to be said. yesterday was good. accomplished many things. the only thing i did not do was practice. i want at least an hour today. gotta make that happen. thinking of yoga. maybe tomorrow. it was nice to work the morning shift rather than the night. mornings are my place. my back is getting to me. on concrete all day is doing it. somehow i have to improve my footwear to make things better! ahhh, the old man in me....my back hurts, my legs ache, i'm only 4! what movie?? gotta get after it. a very good friend is in town. will see him on wednesday. staying the night with us. will be good to hang out with a old friend who gets me. he surprised me in the store sunday. it was awesome! everything else stopped. a good feeling to be with a close friend, even for a moment. made my day! i am grateful for all my friends. they are my family! over & out

JACKETS

in my travels in the city, i come across many individuals seeking money for who knows what. a few card board sign i have seen. "why lie, i need a beer." "why lie, i need a million dollars." there are all kinds of messages from the unfortunate to get you to give them money. the other morning while on a long walk, i had a thought. the jacket i was wearing on my back had some damage and i thought i might send it in to warranty for repair. then it hit me. how many jackets do you have? why do you need this jacket? wouldn't it be nice to take the jacket to the city and hand it to one of the unfortunate i see every day.?. yes it would be nice. make a persons day by giving them the unexpected. why give money when you can give a gift? it blows me away to think about an item i take for granted. the jacket can and will change someones life.

make a difference and kick some ass!

sunday

good morning. it is. coffee. movie in bed. pancakes & more. off to work shortly. really nice having some time! i am free of anger. i got that going for me...which is nice!

THE chill

the sun is coming up and there is quite the chill in the air. 50 degrees in the house when i woke up. thats chilly! little d's birthday party this afternoon. off to the roller skating rink and then back here for utter chaos. "the sleep over" 5 friends sleeping in this tiny place should be interesting... this morning i have my best friend, coffee. this writing. maybe a walk. laundry. hit the skins. not much else. there is always more in my head, but there is a time and a place. got a lot going on. trying to keep the pace going. no down time. there is no down time!